Long time, no see!
I get in slumps, it’s true. I have so many intentions that they get all tangled up and bottlenecked. Am I afraid to commit time to one thing for too long, out of fear that I should have committed time to something else? That seems likely. But every once in a while I can push through, at least for an evening, and unravel a bit.
That’s still sinking in. I gotta keep reminding myself that this is actually the start of my fourth decade, not my third. But maybe those first ten years are a freebie, in terms of personal development. Though foundations were laid in that time, I do not feel that I myself built upon them until afterwards. Of course, I have endless gratitude for my parents and family for laying strong foundations early on, without which I would be a collapsed slump of a manbuilding by now.
My intention is not to get all heady and philosophical today, I just gotta start feeling productive again after my lull. Brains are rested, fingers are antsy, words will spill about in a mess for a while.
New topic! On the way home, I had to swing by the store for a few things, and grab dinner. I had it all plotted out: order food, hunt around in adjacent game store for obscure titles, return to pick up order when ready, go to Target, get amenities, go home, eat, watch Arrested Development.
It’s reassuring that my problems are so small…
At Target, found what I needed. Paid, cashier bagged it all, grabbed bags, left. Got home. Put milk in fridge, bathroom stuff in bathroom. Returned to room to exchange new charger cable for my iPad (wire casing has been stripped away on original, and bare wires were exposed).
Where is it?
Was it in the bag with the milk, and I unwittingly put it in the fridge? No.
Did it fall out in the car? No.
Do I have to get all dressed again, drive back to Target while my food gets cold, gaggle around in the parking lot looking for a spot amongst the rush hour shopperati, hope the store A. hasn’t tossed my item into restock and B. believes me when I say I paid for it? Yes.
So I did that. Thankfully I got what I paid for.
Dear cashier: I’ve done your job before. It’s not difficult. You have two main tasks: scan the items at point of purchase, then drop them into bags. Very rarely, you have the added responsibility of letting a customer know they are leaving without everything they’ve paid for (because when you’ve already prepared two bags for four entire items, I am not generally expecting to need a third).
Like I said. Small problems. By the time I got home, my food was not entirely lukewarm, at least!
New topic! I’m four episodes through the new season of Arrested Development. Capsule review thus far: first episode is strong, second episode is weak, three and four are strong, and I can feel the snowball is has picked up momentum. Like it got a good shoulder at the beginning to get rolling, but then it needed a little more help to get over the crest of the hill. My biggest fear coming into it was that we would be subjected to a recap and remix of all the best jokes from the first three seasons, but it’s already spun off in very unexpected directions and my favorite characters haven’t even had their time in the spotlight yet.
I’m excited to see where it all lands, but I feel I want to pace it out over at least a few days. I need the opportunity to recalibrate as I go on.
It does remind me that I wish Netflix would restructure TV show rating to at least the option to score season-by-season, as each creative capsule may carry its own strengths and weaknesses. I spent a lot of my downtime watching Frasier in its entirety (srsly), and for example I would like to have been able to score some seasons as 5s and others as 3s. That’s a show that managed to shift its tone season by season, to its strength I think, but for a long-running sitcom like that there’s gonna be a portion of the audience that decries a deviation from the initial formula (which even for the best shows starts to lose steam after a few straight years).
New topic! Writing. I am exploring new opportunities to adapt old unfinished stories into the ol’ visual novel format so popular in Japan (I know it’s usually used for romance games but there is no good reason why it can’t be used for other stuff, too). Plans: learn a bit of code to do more interesting stuff with the purpose-built software engine I found. Import and adapt some existing unfinished projects. Try to make them finished projects (or at least, like, a chapter of a longer novel as proof-of-concept, cuz it’s the kind of thing I could release serially (like Dickens! (I’m not really like Dickens (but I bet he would totally be into those dating sims))).
It’d be nice to have some physically adjacent collaborators, or a work space separate from my little ol’ room, but let’s not get ahead of myself.
Arrested Development: so far so good!
Being 30: so far so good!
Writing: we’ll see how I fare!
Keeping dinner down: so far so good!